Tuesday, April 13, 2010

What Might Have Been

I often have subscribed to the semi-magical belief that the body into which your soul was placed was just too imperfect, or perhaps your soul was just not ready, but that you would come to me, to my life, on some later date. So the you that might have been wasn't really lost. But, as for me, I'm pretty sure that me really was.

Perhaps this is callous to acknowledge on your unbirthday, but I often suspect that I mourn more the me that might have been had you not left what you knew of this earth too soon than I do you. Among other things, for this I am sorry.

8 comments:

Amanda said...

Remembering with you. (((hugs)))

cgd said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I totally undestand the feeling of the me that might have been.
Carrie (from LFCA)

Danifred said...

Thinking of you and remembering for you as well.
Hugs!

Katie said...

Aw, honey.

I sometimes feel this way, too.

Remembering with you today.

Auntie Sissy said...

I'm sorry for your loss- it is very tough. My little sea turtle should have been born tomorrow. I'm thinking of you and our lost babies, and the loss of what might have been.

Photogrl said...

Holding you close in my thoughts and prayers...

((HUGS))

HereWeGoAJen said...

Thinking about you.

Yo-yo Mama said...

The woulda's, the shoulda's, the mighta-beens...giving pause and keeping them in our memories makes them ore than that.